have you ever been in pain?
i have.
after training,
my leg was hurting like shitits are very very painful.
but something says:

ZOE HUANG, THIS IS NOT PAIN
my heart convinces me.
"i am the painful one" whispered my heart
"i am..." it continues in mua heart,

my poor heart.
shattered into a million pieces and glued back together carefully,
was shattered again.
this time the pieces were uncountable.
this is

how much i fell

how i much i hurt

how i much i feel.

but you never understand

you never.

my heart,
plastered and bandaged layer after layer
like swiss rolls
you can hardly see the cream
glue leaking out from the inside.
like they always saythe higher you climb, the more you fall.
i have never really studied this phrase
until now

do you know how much i care?

how much i try?

how much i tripped?

how much i cried?

youdon'tknow.

im tearing apart

im almost half

im three quarters fake

and im whole hurt.

but you dont care.

so why should i?

iloveyou.
and thats the only reason i can come up with.

i really really do.
and im sorry i lied
i wasn't hyper that day
my feelings are true
and they are just for you


dedicated to--YOU.