[] jux for yew*___


my heart had shattered into pieces
when the day
the day you were leaving.
though we have jux met nort long ago
but you have leave an memorable impression
with miee.


on the day of your departure.
i will be there looking at yew.
yew may nort notice my existance
cause you are always busy with her.
though you always deny loving her
i can easily seen through yew.


... you still love her.


yew manage to walk into my world
and thus
yew manage to find your way out too.
shud i be happy
or shud i be sad.
yew are the one i treasure the most
but you are also the one
who hurt miee the most.


... you took nothing
... but my heart
... you left nothing
... but your broken promises


at that moment
i was devastated.
very devastated.
nothing ... nothing
could mend my broken* heart
except yew.
but i know
yew will never be mine again.
i tried to accept the fate
the reality
but time after time
i always failed to do so
and fall apart.


you always dont know
... dont know
how much yew meant to miee
dont know how much i treasure yew
dont know
how important you are to miee.

... you are my heart my soul my everything


i had lost
lost to her numerous of times
she had won time after time.
neither did i ever let go
nor did i ever give up


looking jux at your backview
im
already contented.
looking at yew and her
happily together
i was happy for yew all
but i was despair at the same time
i dont know why
i really dont know why.


i din manage to walk into your world
cause im uncertain of my love for yew.
but she
she managed to walk into your world
and you had accept her
why? why? jux tell miee why
your world is so complicated.
i really dont know
what are yew thinking about.


you and miee ended jux like this.
or shud i say
both of us had never started at all and
we would never be together.
no matter what
my love for yew will never change
forever


yew may nort trust miee
but im seriously telling yew.
i love yew more than anything
you are the one who melt my heart
yew are the one who had touched miee
touched miee
with all your concern
all your caring towards miee
do yew do the same to other gurls?
i dont know
and i wont want to noe
let it be jux like this.
knowing too much will end up
hurting two parties
i rather nort know


yew are my everything
without yew
i cant breathe
without yew
i cant see
without yew i wont be able to live.


all this may seem mushy
but this are all from the bottom
the very bottom of my broken heart.


i learnt to fly
and wanted to fly


fly to a far away land
somewhere you cant find miee
and i wont be able to see yew.
maybe this would be better for
the both of us.



-devastated-