i dun hope much.
all i want is you
tho i noe it is impossible.
i hoped;
i wished;
i dreamt;
i waited...


i waited for you
knowing that you will never be mine
no matter how hard i try to pursue it
you always leave me bbrokkenn hheartedd
leave me lying among the dead
leave me hanging in between heaven & hell
you hold me with a thread;
knowing i might fall

*my storyy-
i still believe in fairytales.
he seemed so genuine.
i stared deep into his eyes,
the colour of starlight on still water, and i believed.
i let myself drown in those water.
and if were to faced with that choice again,
i'd dive in head first, knowing well the icy shock that came before the ecstasy.

he was like an addiction, a drug in my system
from that very first kiss by the lake with only the eye of the full moon upon us.
i was a slave to him then, and he knew it.
i was drowning, but he did nothing to save me.
yet, he was the only thing keeping me breathing.

he pulsed through my veins, my life force, as steady as my own heartbeat.
but while he was holding me up, he tore me down.
i feel it even now, the sting of his absence.
i havent felt whole since i was in his arms.
i doubt that i will ever feel whole again.


~the white snow is beautiful, she admits.
but not half as beautiful as the darkness.
and with that thought, she flew. ~