devastated again.
i promise this would be the last time
that i will be sad cus of him.
so jus let me be sad once more
cus i really can take it NO more.
its a pain in my arse.
its hurting so much that
i really duno what to do.
my heart is jus so wrenched up
by him
and HIM again.
whats really going through me?
i duno it myself.
i cant search for a reason
neither can i asked for the answer.
i am jus so stuck in THIS piece of SHYT
imma sick and tired of all this
but why
jus WHY
do i cry over him?
why do i feel so sad over him?
why do i have
THIS pathetic feeling for him?
why do i still like him?
cant i forget him for goodness sake.
imma jus so STOOPID
to fall for this idiotic trap again.
trap in his heart.
i jus hate the way i live for tomorrow.
i hate tomorrow.
i hope i can jus sleep and never wake up.
all his doings are driving me nuts.
imma nt coming to my senses
why do i still like him?
WHY?!?!
FARK!
i hate it.
i hate the way he treats me
i hate the way he gets so close to other girls.
i hate the way he ignores me
i hate the way he deceives me
i hate it i hate it
but why cant i jus hate him.
sometime, i jus wish i nv noe him at all
its so hurting for me to see it with my bare eyes
them holding hands
them talking to each other sweetly
them going home together
them smiling sheeplessly at me
the sight of them jus make me sad
i promised to be strong
but i cant
i aint strong afterall
imma jus a girl.
well, a teenager like me
shant be thinking of all this nonsensical things
at this moment.
well, jus let me be sad for this
ONE LAST PATHETIC MOMENT
i promise jus once.
devastated.



well, i assured nat that i WONT blog any
nonsensical entry alr.
yet imma blogging this stoopid love thingy of mine.
WOOT/
promise this would also be the last.
hehe (:



eh lea.
from now on theres only studies in my mind
and only STUDIES.
no more sms
no more talking on phone
well, yes to msn but nt so many times eh.
hehe.
yeah =D
STUDIES here i come. wheeee