wheee-
its a WET WET day.
hehs.
went for tuition.


aint in the right mindset to study mathematics
and we're doing revision tests somemore.
my body was there but my soul aint.
its like others were doing their papers hurrily
while i'm day dreaming?
thinking of what had happened this few days.
ups and downs.
i was like scanning through the entire classroom
and my eyes met amanda's.
looking at the tan on her body make me remember something.


2ND JUNE came back to my head again.
the day which lead him to the wrong mindset.


- class outing at east coast.
- darl was there as well.
- had sunburn.
- ate some food.
- sat by the beach.
- he came.
- rode the bicycle tgt.
- he was in front whereas i was at the back
- laughed and chatted.
- listened mp3 tgt.
- cycled uphill tgt.
- bought sugarcane drink.
- sat by the mini pond.
- talk about daily life.
- eyes met.
- touched.
- ride bike again.
- he cycled till he had cramps.
- went to the place whr lotsa people fished.
- sat down at one of the benches.
- enjoying the breeze and nice scenery.
- jus me and him.
- strolled back tgt, pushing the bike.
- he purposely took the longer route.
- i let him.
- he came real close.
- i ran away, he chased after by riding.
- we cycled again.
- had lotsa fun time tgt.


den everything came to an end.
had to go back, he insisted on sending me home.
but he had his girl then. i wanna be no third party
so i said no.
he messaged me. i was happy.
he told me he love that day the most
and hope that it doesnt end so quickly.
same goes to me. i hope that i can stay there forever.
then he confessed to me.
" I LIKE YOU, ZOE."
he sent.
i duno how to reply so i switch off my phone.
i waited for the next day.


watching tv at night with my phone in my hands.
i waited for wl's message.
-vibrates-
i tot it was wl so i was smiling.
i opened the message
-hakim- it says.
he had broke up with his girl that day
jus because of me.
touched? of cus i am.
but sad as well.
i felt that i'm sucha flirt-it-all,
so bytch-y all the way.
i'm no good girl.


had some conversation with his girl
the few days after their break up.
i came to understand how much she likes him.
i tried to patch them up once again
but he was too stubborn.
he chose to wait for me.
one month,
two months,
three months,
four months
or maybe more,
he had waited.
he had asked me to be with him
for countless for times
but i always reject.
perhaps he was tired of all the rejecting i had made.
he had,
finally made a decision which is to give up.
i'm nt sad at all. well, maybe jus a lil.
he is a nice person but its jus that
his character is some kinda weird.
too weird for me.
and his attitude, its a NO-NO to me.
i've spent thousand of sms-es on him
but in the end, we're not even standing as one.
i felt that imma sucha heartbreaker.
i break one after the other's heart.
i have no intention.


each time i see him in class,
my heart wrench.
he's forever moody in class tho he tried to act happy
i'm sorry, really sorry.
i feel so bad cus
i'm being high in class,
talking to everyone like nobody's business
and you being sad, feeling inferior.
accepting the fact takes time
but pls do.
cus i'm no more the old zoe.
not the emotional,
not the soft hearted,
not the everything duno,
not the heartbreaking,
zoe anymore.


okayy, fly away bad mood.
SEE LA, jus cuse of one tan
let me elaborate until liddat.
wahaha.
smelly amanda,
go suntan for what. HAHA
x)
had mcdonalds for lunch.
mcspicy double!!
YUMYUM*
gonna get back to my homework soon.
hardworking girl, here i come (:
having a haircut is a CONFIRM thing.
dun tok me out. i wont listen.
HAHS.