all of a sudden i felt tired.
jesus, i guess im back to my emo state
which is way no good :/
perhaps the song gortoz a ran by lisa gerald
brings me to this kinda mood.


last day of schl in 2005.
suppose to be happy but im not.
tried to act high.
tried to act shameless.
tried to act so many things.
but i cant ran away from my ownself.


almost late for schl td (as usual)
left house at 7.10am liddat
reached schl arnd 7.28am.
i was running and skipping to schl lo.
perspired so much.
had assembly den spring cleaning.
however 2D was like more to talking/discussing about our class outing den to spring cleaning.
sentosa on 22 nov.
our last class outing of the year.
our last gathering as 2D`ers.
our last sweet talking with one another.
our last moment as a class of 2D.
our last moment with ms ong.
everything seems so sad and i duno why.
sadistic i guess.
akid passed it on to me perhaps.


got back our report book and schl magazine.
hell cooll.
the nicest schl magazine i ever seen.
but the pictures of me inside jus sark :X
ms ong put a lil bookmark in each and every report book of ours
with a lil note behind.
so touching ):
she even gave each of us a lil token.
kinder bueno for the top 10s
and chewy gummies for the rest.
she's so super super good to us.
I SO LOVE HER (((:


assemble in the hall after that.
had briefing of the sec 2 end of year camp.
i have no mood of it
cus we're group according to our sec3 classes.
i dun like that.
have to go back to schl next monday
to check for our streams.
we're suppose to noe by td
but there's one class who's long mark sheet aint correct
thus all the grouping which the teachers had done
went down the drain.
but it alwrightt,
cus i aint prepared to noe which stream im going yet.
im sick and tired of all this.


had councillor meeting after that.
damn crazy.
they kept asking whose mohammad (30).
i myself dun even noe whose that?
i jus do according to the name list.
and im good to find out the mohammad of 1H alwrightt.
so i took out the schl magazine and looked for him.
den akid said that this year's magazine v nice.
and i replied without a hesistation
"OF CUS, have lot of my pictures inside what!!"
den the councillors there all made the vomiting effect.
so funny la.
was freaking hungry during meeting.
we din have our breaks :D


i love this year's holies
and kinda hate them as well.
lotsa events up and i wanna enjoy them
but there's this thing which prevents me to.
the worst thing is that i duno what it is.
im like so dead now.
jus dun feel like doing anything
and i wanna cancel tmr's tuition.
i wan a FREE saturday,
not a FULLY-BOOKED one.
it's holies, mummy!!
give me a break.
im falling apart again.
i jus wanna break free.
PLEASE :/


i cant wait for the sentosa trip.
im so gonna repair my digital camera
and take lotsa snappies with ms ong.
I DUN CARE!
take down all the memorable moments
thats the least i can do to treasure them.
outing to millenium walk with mrs soo too.
this is suppose to be a secret but...
escape theme park and barberque are next.
followed by camping overnight.
lotsa activitied laid ahead of me
but i jus dun seem to be able to enjoy all of them.
something is restricting me to do so.
i think its my mummy.
laughs-




someone pull me from behind please ;
i feel that im drifting away from you.
all i wanted was jus a love that is secure.