7 MORE DAYS


have been studying and doing hw all day long.
some times, i think having tuition is better :X
CA1 is getting nearer
and those examinations are scaring the shyt out of me.
going to sch ALONE tmr AGAIN.
can't bring handphone nor MP3,
how boring can life be without music?
schl's gonna be super duper ubber ultra long tmr.
lessons up till 3.45PM or later.
friends are my motivation tho.


how i wish to change my layout
but im jus too lazy :X
perhaps after CA1, i will change it.
so kavee, after CA1 (:
you're having much more scandals than i do
so by staying at home will be better for you
and maybe for me cus at least i know
it'll not increase the number of scandals you have.


girl, i've read your blog and i've been thinking.
we really have distanced.
you're no longer the you i've known since day 1
and i'm no longer the me you've known since day 1.
i've changed to be more independent.
i've changed to be more adaptable to my surrounding.
i'm no longer that little girl who was so directionless.
having able to think over and over again,
i guess the best solution is to set you free and let you go.
some times, having to smile too much is tiring.
its also tiring to hide one's feeling and not being able to show it out.
my tears are being hidden by the smiles i've put each day.
i'm wearing a mask, not only for a day but, everyday.
we're moving apart, further and further
be it in class, in schl, outside.
i'm really hoping to get you back to my side
but its really torturing to be the one who is always initiating.
i've also learnt not to be too reliable on you.
having done so much for you, do you feel it?
laughing each day away is what i've been doing
to ease the pain i get each time i see you.
why are there so many obstacles for us to face?
i'm getting tired each day, girl.


after the previous incident,
i've learnt to hide my feelings and bottled my emotions up.
perhaps, this time round is less obvious for you to notice me being sad.
i laughed and smiled to you whenever i see you
but how much do you know that i'm feeling the pain inside?
i'm not saying that X is snatching you away from me
in fact, i don't mind sharing.
its just that i don't feel you there for me.
i don't feel your presence, girl.
being forced to fake a smile, a laugh each day is not a good feeling.
some times, i wish to surrender and give you to X with open arms
but i can't bear to.
a friendship up to almost three years, its so worthy.
having hiccups in between, i don't mind but do you?
perhaps you'll feel happier and more comfortable with X than me
if thats the case, tell me.
i'll learnt to set you free and let you go
even if it means separation.
a friendship worth almost three years, a lot of memories.
i'll pack them all up and lock them in a secret room in my heart.
never going to let any of them escape, i will treasure them.
with the last word, i thank you for being my friend.


now that she's gone and i've set my mind at ease.
i will face up to reality and wake up from my dream.
all the happy moments are ..........


beautifully broken.


i will survive through this lonely road.
i stand alone and i stand strong.
fighting all my sorrows, fighting all my pain,
i will learn to set you free.


ERGHHH, sucha sadistic i am.
mugging in process.
till then, i pray to meet isaac tmr. HEHE.
(so i'll have someone to walk with to schl)