ITS A FCUKED UP DAY >:(


the start of tuesday was prettaye okay
cause i get to see _____ after morning assembly.
but towards the middle of the day, something happened.
something i hoped had never happened happened.
the entire situtation was so fcuked up.
pardon me if you all find me a little vulgar :/
but i just cant stand it.


everything started from him
and ended v asshole-ly on me.
he called me an attention seeker for crying.
hello ?!?!
did his mummy teach him that girls are normally weaker than guys?
i'm not that strong ALTHOUGH i'm a supergirl.
the words which he said hurt me deep down okay.
i treated him as my best-est best of friends among the darwins
but today, he changed my mindset about him.
he's no longer that gentlement he used to be during sec3 camp
and he's no longer that good partner he used to be when sec3's life just started.
perhaps i know him too well.
i really regreted for not controlling my flow of tears
and that actually showed me his unsightly side.
it all started v stupidly and ended with a hurting ending.
his words, his actions, his thinking
they all affected me, dear.
okay, i'm at fault too and i'm sorry for shouting at you.
BUT MAKE THIS CLEAR, I'M NOT AN ATTENTION SEEKER!
don't he ever dare call me that again!
i never am that okay.
everything was just so fcuked up.
he don't want to apologise? so be it.
i don't yearn them either.
i don't accept unsincere stuffs.
we're both at fault, so i shall do this:


to harris,
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY


apart from the unhappy stuffs,
there are times where we enjoyed.
like ACT3 (:
zachary just make me laughed like mad.
and isaac, this is the first time we talk till so damn freaking long
after that incident.
and i'm so loving it. thanks for that sending-me-home thing :DD
suddenly, i miss so much of OBS :/
and _____ talked to me after 12345678910 days.
thanks boy xD
let's go macau together. LOL.
renew-ing of passport, i shall.
for the sake of macau. WAHAHA.
looking damn forward to it eh. yaye!


alright, freaking lots of hw to be complete.
so till then, HOMEWORK-ING (:

those words, they hurt me so.