A VEHVEH GOOD GIRL (:


alright mann, i'm v pleased with myself today.
at least i'm strong enough to survive through :DD
from the first period to the last period,
i've been damn freaking attentive throughout.
you can say its my first time being so attentive
compared the past 3plus months.
today as i stepped into the classroom and sat on my seat,
abdul's words rang in my head.
"relationships are v messy stuffs.
they can go up and down as and when they like.
why not try to settle down and be studious?"
and tadahh, i listened to him (:
am the v. v. good girl again, all thanks to abdul.


you all might think that i'm acting my way through today.
well, at least i paid attention in class.
i admit that i'm using all the work/homeworks to make me numb
but thats the least things i can do.
by doing that, i won't feel the pain too and i can improve on my studies
so its like killing two birds with one stone (:


the day started off so-so.
reached schl and chit chatted with qaiyuum, hakim, lm and doreen.
i must admit that they brightened up my morning.
at least i went "HAHA-ING"
had councillor morning duty again but
its pledge taking and not collecting registers.
ahhhh-kidddd was suppose to help me take over
cause i was somehow having flu td.
okay, i cried till i've flu. how great :X
but still, i did my duty.
amin was the parade commandant.
i "yo-ed" to him but he v emotionless ):
so nevermind, i tried again and he responded. WAKAKA.
i was examining/looking at other people during national anthem.
then, i saw him ):
suddenly, my heart sank damn deep down.
i totally have no mood to do my duty - pledge taking anymore.
URGHHHH!


had fun with px and shahirah.
and ms tan claimed that we're noisy :/
went back to class with px after that.
we had fun, i tell you.
i'm the beauty and px's the beast.
WAKAKA!
our inner secret (:


first period was EMATHS.
mdm sumarni was suppose to come but she didnt
so mdm mary came and we've AMATHS instead.
i was so happy and was jumping with joy mann.
cause i can't find my maths book b
and thus i did my emaths hw on foolscap.
i was so worried that mdm sumarni would scold and skinned me alive.
but THANK GOD, we didn't have a lesson with her td (:
second period was HMT.
wasted 45minutes on chit chatting though.
i was damn high then. aha!
super talkative, i tell you.
watched a dvd - "tian chang di jiu" for 15minutes.
had some little talks with felicia, miowlin and weizhong
while walking out of ava room.
third period was SOCIAL STUDIES.
mrs foo gave out our essay.
i got a L3, so chicken poot poot.
went through the correction and i was super attentive/talkative
till puvan kept asking me to "SHHHHH"
fourth period was RECESS (:


fifth period was AMATHS.
mdm mary again. was super high (:
sixth period was BIOLOGY.
ms cheng went through photosynthesis with us
and she brought some sample of leaves in alcohol for us to see.
i accidentally spilled the bloody alcohol :X
panicked like hell la. hahaha!
seventh period was LUNCH (:


eighth period was CHEMISTRY.
nineth period was CHEMISTRY.
two consecutive periods of chemistry was okay.
not that bad cause time seemed to pass v fast :/
and again, we had hell lots of fun.


went home straight after schl.
took 307 with winnie.
i was reflecting on stuffs.
thinking that, i shall not believe in him anymore
but something is holding me back.
i like him, i really do.
is it just a tiny winy bit? or what?
i love acting my way through maybe thats why i'm in eldds.
i'm sorry but i need to ease the pain.
feeling so much of hatred but i cant bear to hate.
all the fun i had td were all fake.
sorry if i've cheated you all.
but i need to feel happy to forget the sad things.
i hate messy lifestyle.
i'm sorry abdul, i think i need you again ):


you don't sweet talk me and dumped me aside like that.
i trusted you so much, you fat pig ):
please don't lie anymore,
your words, i find it hard to trust now.
for now, i trust my eyes more than you.
anyways, thank you for the waste of your saliva
very much appreciated.
you left my heart "ping piang - ing"
I NEED ABDUL BIG TIME ):