i feel that i'm under pressure.
feeling so helpless, i just want to be free.


i'm hating schl as time pass.
dont ask me why. i just hate it.
its not the teachers, its not the subjects,
its not the people nor is it the environment.
i just hate schl now.
the pain i receive everyday kept increasing
though i tried to be happy.
sometimes the thought of not wanting to live
flashes pass my head.
i dont know if i'm going into a depression mood or what.
URGHHH-
i just hate everything!


lessons were okay-okay.
first period was HMT.
we watched dvd tgt with 3A in the ava room.
px& i went dozing off.
second period was ENGLISH.
emotional stuffs started to build up.
SHIT.
third period was EMATHS.
px& i kept competing to complete the sums first.
HAHAHAHAs.
fourth period was RECESS (:


fifth period was PHYSICS.
i moved next to lm
so that i'm able to concentrate better.
indeed, its sucha nice place to study in :DD
abdul's humourous so was chingrong.
we did experiments x)
sixth period was BIOLOGY
but mr.huang was absent so ms.kang took over it.
so we had two periods of PHYSICS.
everything was perfect.
i was hell happy (lalala should know why)
then, things started to change.
i get so irritated that i blasted. i'm sorry, darwinians.
will try to control myself more. HAHAs.


sometimes i think that
the god-damn world is bloody against me.
and seriously, i think i'm having depression.
people, counsel me please
before i go bonkers.


daily dosage of ehem calms me.
at least he's able to make me smile& forget my sorrows.
but i feel real bad to pour all my sorrows at him
though he said "its okay."
he's sucha sweet fella right? HAHAHAs.
ehem makes me fly to the moon.
MUAHUAHUA (:


i dont want to be a murderer;