Tsk. If you ask me how it went for me today. I've only one word to describe it.

SUAY!


I don't know why but everything seemed to go wrong today. Its either i'm down on luck or just purely suay. Everything was perfectly fine until break time. I don't know why people just can't remember school rules. Is it that tough to remember or rather obey them? I know that no one loves rules/being control (including me) but at least, i repeat, at least cooperate with us {Councillors} right? We, Councillors, are human being too. We also love fun& excitements. We ain't any aliens okay. But somehow, things just didn't go the way they should be.

3 things that made me =( today:
1. The sec3 boy who shouted cb to me.
I know its irritating for the Councillors to remind you all that "No sweet drinks/food outside the canteen" but have you all put yourselves into our shoes? Who doesn't want to play? Who doesn't want to enjoy breaks? Who doesn't want to be free? Dude, i've got to admit that you're pretty handsome& (frankly speaking) you've caught my eyes when you were in sec1. However, words that came out of your mouth today changed my entire perspective of you. So, please watch your language cause its a demerit to your good looks.


2. The sec3 girl who "yelled" right in my face.
Hey, you jolly well know the school rules that "No sweet drinks/food outside the canteen" since Primary School i suppose. But, look at you. Sec3 and yet you don't know the rules. & you can still show me your freaking anger. I just merely tell you that you can't bring drinks outside the canteen& you showed me your fucked up face. There isn't a need to shout at me or shoved me aside. There's isn't a need to show me your "heck care" face cause i know you're being pissed. Well, i tell you what; i'm very pissed off too. We, Councillors, have to sacrifice our break time& do what you have self-proclaimed 'stupid duty' in order the maintain the order. You think we don't want to enjoy our break& have fun with our friends? But since i'm being entrusted with this task/duty, i'll have to do it. You think its nice being a Councillor? You think its easy to be one? If thats the case, i'll give you my Councillor badge& you do the job for me while i'll re-play your role of being the fucked up one. & let's see who will have the last laugh.


3. My damnit Physics standard.
I seriously feel like giving Pure Physics up. I don't know where my sec1& sec2 Physics knowledge had went to. Most probably, returned to the teachers :/ Mr.Tan is patient enough to listen to all my nonsense. I thank him for that. Ohwell, i'll try my best in February test again. If i don't do well, i must as well drop it. Uh, actually i'm having second thoughts.


So, overall i don't quite like today. I've been cursed, yelled, scolded& laughed at. I realised that i'm quite a weakling, in terms of character. I cried when the sec3 girl just yelled, shoved& gave me the fucked up face. I kept blaming myself. As her senior, i didn't manage to set a good example. As a Student Councillor, i didn't manage to stop her wrong doings. Mouthing the word "Fuck you", she walked away. Girl, i forget to tell you that i know how to lip-read huh. Anyways, in order to avoid such cases again i'm going to keep my mouth shut tomorrow. I'll just smile& answer when people ask me something. Yessa, i kind of feel inferior now. I'm afraid. I'm scared. But who cares?! There'll only gonna be me, myself& i in the end of the day. I stand by my ownself.


Somehow, it sounded cliche.