Alright people, i'm back by popular demand again! :D Ha, sorry for not updating daily. PEACE TO ALL, YAL? Uhm, have been quite busy these days. Mid-year is here to stay for a few weeks& i'm struggling just to see tomorrow. How lame? We just had Emaths paper1 yesterday. Overall, it was okay-okay. Still manageable (i think), hope that i won't flunk it. God bless (:

English paper1& 2 tomorrow. How nice right? I'm so going to flood the marker tomorrow with influx of emotions in my paper1. Yaphooo! Reason? Cause i'm feeling quite -.- now, so i'll just pray that tomorrow's paper1 topic will be a rather sad one. Then, it'll be an advantage to me. WAHAHAHA! Right, i promise that i'll study after updating this stupid shit okay? :D

Today was like a volcano-eruption-day for me. I swear i've been keeping my cool for the past few days. I've been tolerating, keeping my thoughts to myself, swallowing my pain inside& shutting the hell up for everything. But, today was the day to let them all out. I don't know why& don't know how but yes, today was the day. I was still alright before recess, well perhaps after recess too. I don't really show my true self to others. I was more like a fake-o (sad to hear that yah?) Anyhoos, i burst everything out after school. Thanks to Happy-pie (yup, i'm still calling him that) I don't blame him cause i was in a lousy mood too. So, we're kind of in the same boat. Then i don't know why i got so -.- off by Limin. No hard feelings though. I just find what she said then, not very pleasant to my ears. Well, partially its my mood lar. Stupid! o.o I'm sorry for talking loudly at you eh. Peace yah, woman? :D I'm cool-ed already, are you? Hahahaha!

I don't know what had gotten over me these days. I'm easily short-tempered. Rah, i hate that. Every single thing pissed me off. Well, Px is in the same situation with me too. But she's better in covering them. Sigh, just hope that things won't get worse. I'm not going to lament over what i had done but wish them both good. Afterall, its studies which i want the most. No more hardcore relationship, no more emo-ism, not more pain& misery, no more anger& rage. I'll be the old Zoe, the Zoe which everybody knew since Day1.

I'm not going to fake a smile anymore. Cause Gage used to say its pathetic& deceiving one self. I'm going to be euphoria, i'm going to be true, i'm going to be real, i'm going to be my real self. Please don't be skeptical of whether i'm sad/happy. From today onwards, i'm going to strive for the better me as well as the better results of mine. I've been slacking way too long. Its time to buck up& prepare to fight the battle - Olevel. I'm going to handle everything which i face smartly& carefully. GO GO GO, ZOE! :D

Uh, i think this post is long enough for my readers yeah? More to come next time, i promise. But please be patient with me. I'll update again after mid-year. Zhiwei will be my alarm clock cause he's always counting the days of me not updating. HAHAHAH! & yes, school will be fun& great for me (at least) HA! I'll still piss you off during Physics lesson, CHAN LEE. We'll still have more ruler-fighting-session with each other, BRUCE LEE. We'll still have sarcastic bickering, WONG LEE. I'll still smile widely to you, PARK LEE& i'll try all means to make you smile, GAGE LEE. Wahahaha! All the LEE(s) family unite! ;) Hrm, so i'll just blog to here. Takecare& LOVES! All the best for tomorrow's English papers, people!

I'm in a state of heavy consciousness, neither aware nor unaware. The dreams are real or as real as dreams can be. In them i see, i hear, i touch& i feel. Images are like running film, sounds are like a stereo. My eyes are dead.

There's no refuge from confession but suicide; & suicide is confession.