Had been chatting with Baby since i woke up. He made me :) and showed me funny videos. Thank you Baby. Then i went to prepare the stuffs i wanted to give to Baby. Everything's so rush and i don't think i'm satisfied with the things i gave him. It could be much more better but time is limited. How i hate when time is running out. Gimme gimme gimme more time.

"As we go on, we remember all the times we had together. Come whatever, we will still be friends forever."

I cried while i wrote the things for Baby. He really meant a lot to me. And its really a lot. Met up with Baby just now at around 4plus. Pass him the stuff while he gave what he wants to give to me. Wanted to give Baby a hug ah, but my sister was there already. Sian. So proceeded to Lot1 with sister to buy daily necessities. Was messaging with Baby. He also went Lot1 but we're at different stores. We looked out for one another but invalid. However, we still continued to message. Went NTUC and i started reading what Baby had wrote for me. A total of 3 pieces of paper. My tears started to well up when i was reading the first piece. I almost cried in the NTUC.

Went home after that. Went online immediately and saw Baby.

Baby: I miss you. A lot. I don't know why but this feeling is so strong. Each time i think of you leaving, tears just fall like waterfall. You're just like a part of me, you complete me. Without you, i guess i'll just be another lonely and unhappy girl. You're just like my sunshine, shining me with your everlasting and bright rays. You make me feel so warm and happy inside. I don't know what my life will be like if there weren't you. You make my life better, happier, funnier and more exciting. Now that you're leaving, saddness overwhelm me tremendously. Tears fell uncontrollably. My heart ached like mad. I know and i kept telling myself that this is part and parcel of life. But how i wish that you'll stay with me, by my side. Cause without you, i don't know what to do. Who will be there to cheer me on? Who will be there to push me up? Who will be there to ensure that my roller coaster doesn't go down but up? Who will be there to catch me when i fall? Who will be there to listen to my sorrows over and over again? I miss you. Sometimes i'll think, why am i not an Indonesia? So i can leave and return together with you. Watching my Baby leave is the saddest thing that can happen to me. Maybe i'm getting my retribution by leaving without a word during Chalet. Now, you're leaving me without a word. Ha! Btw, thank you for the stuff just now. Hope you'll return soon. Miss you with all my heart.

Was chatting with Meta and Baby while blogging this. Meta asked me a question. It caught me completely off-guard.

(i shall not show his email) says:
Zoe,why do us ppl have to meet then part?

And so i replied him.

zoe says:
We meet and part is just to test how strong our friendship/relationship is. This is just a test for all of us. God's putting us through a terrible test man. Sometimes i wish, i could be god. So i can call shots. But its already good to be able to make friends with you all. Parting is only the start of something new. Ytd, when we sent you off. I saw this poster, " A new journey begins." & i think its quite true. We each have other life to lead. But after some time, i believe that we'll meet again. This time, no one will be leaving anymore. We'll stay tgt. I'm looking forward to this day.

I hope he's satisfied with my answer though. Somehow i felt like i'm self-deceiving. The answer i gave is so not what i'm thinking about. I was actually questioning myself, "Why? Why do we have to meet and then part?" I detest the way things are. I find them ridiculous. Why make us meet and then separate us? If that's the case, why let us meet in the first place? It'll only bring pain and misery to everyone. That's why i'm afraid of making friends. I'm afraid that one day, they'll leave me. Like now, everyone's leaving slowly; one by one. And at the end of the day, i'm left with myself to fend for myself.

I think i've grumble wayyyy too much. Its time for me to shower & pack my luggage. There's still many things left for me to handle. Till then, toodles.

43 more days. I'll persevere for Baby. I'll open the stuff only after 43 days, i promise :)